Chapter 10.

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A lunatic's lament.


My heart is in turmoil. It holds a secret, a treasure I guard fiercely, a love that only I can feel. The words I want to whisper are lost in the silence of my own heart, a love I can't express. I could never marry you, so I buried you instead. And made sure no one gets you. I'm selfish and relentless about what's happening, but I can't seem to control my emotions. A sudden obsession seizes my soul. No poisonous kiss, but enough to make me a lunatic. I would take a walk together and count the stars that disappear. It almost felt like desperation. Feelings are mutual, but unable to reciprocate, hence it became complicated. Could this lead to a tragic ending? I pondered. May the current obsession fade away. The heart is not strong enough for another fall.

Why must things be so complicated? Why do we have to cross paths at the wrong time? Why is a stone heart able to get swayed, to have feelings again? So many questions yet when we put it to faith, everything happens for a reason. That everything is written to happen.

I'm going berserk. 


No quote, it's a story from a song.

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