Chapter 23.

Back to 2009.

Once upon a time, when I started blogging. 

I was eighteen. I remembered learning how to create my own blog layout and whatnots.

Using HTML, those late nights tryna decode and such.

10 years ago, I tried to recover it, but I couldn't. Now, I couldn't either.

Fortunately, I found a way to delete this whole thing. But Imma gives it some time to look back on.

IF ONLY i could recover it, I would reminisce you.

IF ONLY i could recover it, I would read everything you blogged about me.

IF ONLY i could recover it, I would get to see those baybeats moments.

IF ONLY i could recover it, I would try to talk to you again.

You are my beautiful walking contradiction. Sounds familiar? Yeah, you.

rHis i remember,

but then you disappear.

i hope one day you realised,

that you were once i compromised.

You were my first, and I was too,

A love so young, so pure, so true.

It could have bloomed, a perfect thing,

But I chose storms instead of spring.

#shain

Back in MSN days. you got jealous.

I updated my MSN status to "I know it's kinda lame, but happy birthday, <insert name>."

It wasn't your birthday.

Instead, it was your friend's.

Also, those were the times when I joined a DJ session?

It's with DVR members. Can't recall what that means haha

It was online. It's like for members ONLY.

There was even an invitation code to enter.

Idk if anyone else experiences this.

Basically, you can dedicate a song to someone or sing live.

There would be a chat box.

And my username would be anonymous. 

Each time I change my username, I see a pattern. 

That someone secretly changed their username to something similar to mine.

If my username is a fruit, you change to a fruit name too. Thinking back, you wanted my attention xD

I was forced to enter the "room" because if I didn't, you wouldn't. That's very pathetic.

And if I don't show up, the rest of the girls will be waiting for YOU. sheesh.

When I went offline, you would too. It's just ridiculous af.

When you went on holiday, you told me instead of anyone, making me feel extra special?

But I couldn't be bothered. LOL

I remembered all the other girls being overly jealous. They don't wanna be friends with me.

Including your best friend.

Just because I don't like you, you got angry at me?

And asked me why I didn't like you? Haha

And because all the other girls were head over heels for you.

ps; You are so full of yourself. I remember you saying you had the whole package - voice, looks, tall.

But that doesn't mean I have to like you. Mehhh.

They see me rollin', They hatin'

Patrollin' tryna catch me ridin' dirty,

Tryna catch me ridin' dirty.

My music's so loud, I'm swangin',

They hopin' that they gon' catch me ridin' dirty,

Tryna catch me ridin' dirty,

Tryna catch me ridin' dirty.

Oh, those were the times. How time flies.

I wished I could turn back time and do it all over again.

With the only exception being when I turned 24 - that's when things got ugly as f.

Cringe reading my labels.