Chapter 48: The Road to Wholeness

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Finding Myself Again

In the quiet after letting go,
I realize how much of myself I have lost along the way.
Pieces scattered, heart heavy,
mind clouded with too many storms.

Now, it is time to return to myself.
To gather what has been broken,
to feel whole again,
to learn how to smile without forcing it,
to love myself in ways I once forgot.

I know it won’t be easy.
Some days I will stumble,
some nights I will question,
but I will stand up again.
Stronger. Wiser. Ready for whatever may come.

Above all, I want my sanity back.
I want my peace.
And I will fight for it —
not against the world,
but for myself.

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