Chapter 69: Holy Month

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Fasting Month

Two weeks in.
Barely surviving.

Flu took a week out of me.
Body fragile.
Energy thin.
Such a weakling — or so I call myself.

Weight crept up quietly.
Now I’m negotiating with the mirror.

HIIT for discipline.
Sweat for redemption.
Then breaking fast like I earned the feast twice.

Cycle repeats.

Truth is,
I don’t feel Raya this year.

No spark.
No anticipation.
Just routine dressed in tradition.

Same greetings.
Same questions.
Same version of me standing in the same room.

Maybe it’s not the celebration.
Maybe it’s the setting.

Maybe one day,
in my own place,
on my own terms,
Raya will land differently.

For now,
it’s just another month
I’m trying to get through.




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