Chapter 71: Knowing My Place

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Not too late

You learn your place in someone’s life through their actions. If you are not a priority, there will always be endless excuses. That alone tells you how much you truly meant to them.

Nonetheless, I wish them well.

On a brighter note, I’m looking forward to more training and fitness — preparing myself for what’s ahead.

Even though it feels like pain and torture at times, I hope it will all be worthwhile. This is something I’ve wanted for the longest time. Call me petty if you want, but I never had the chance before… and I might just get that opportunity in the future.

Call me a late bloomer if you must — I don’t mind. After all, you only live once.

It’s refreshing that no one in the team knows me. Let them judge me for who I am, not for what others say about me. The only downside is that they’ve already built strong bonds among themselves.

But that’s alright. I’m not here to chase acceptance.

I’m here to prove to myself that I can still show up, still push through the pain, and still become the person I’ve been trying to be all along.

Still, if paths cross, eyes meet, and friendships bloom along the way — that would simply be a bonus.



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